Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Today offically makes 2 months that he has been gone.  I know its just a TDY and that deployments are so much longer, but having just moved here and not been able to spend much time with him before he left, makes this time he is gone so much harder.  Im very blessed that I have a job and have women nearby that I can talk to cause they understand.  But it doesn't help how hard it can be to have a new relationship long distance.  I have to say though that he is amazing!!  Im not always the easiest person to be in a relationship with.  But he has taken the time to get to know me, and still loves me.  And he can make me laugh when Im mad, he can bring me out of bad mood, make me smile even when Im crying, he somehow understands all of me and still stands calmly by to support me and tell me he loves me.

I didn't really think men like him existed!  I really didn't mean to find him, nor was out looking for a relationship at all when we started talking.  I had just gotten out of a bad relationship and was out working on finding a way to start my life over, and to try and believe in myself again.  I was going through the hardest part of my life...trying to pick up pieces.  I hadn't really given up on love or relationships, I just wasn't looking, because I knew I still needed to heal.  And here comes this guy I knew in High School sending me messages on Facebook, just talking.  It was nice to reconnect with someone, especially a guy I had a crush on in Grade School...hehe.   But talking with him was fun and nice to have a friend.  Somehow it quickly turned into something more, and Im not sure how it really happened,
As of right now I have about 45 days till I get to see my man again, and it has not been easy!  But on the bright side I've been spending most of my free time at the beach.  Mornings are my favorite time of day, waking up and photographing the sunset on the beach is probably the single most amazing past time, right next to finding awesome shells at the beach, which I have also been doing.  Some how recently amazingly beautiful and unique shells have been making their way on our beaches and I have loved every min of it.  Though my boyfriend may not like it cause at this point we have soo many shells and not enough space for all of them.  But thankfully Im crafty and will figure something out. 

I went out yesturday moring on our beautiful Flordia Gulf Coast Beaches, and was simply in awe of how blessed I am.  Heading out before the sun came up in a pair of cut of shorts and a hoodie....simply an amazing morning!!  But we have had the prettiest baby conch shells rolling up on the beaches, and its exciting to me to try to find them.  Although with the shells some how also came these ridicuolus biting flies, oh I was a champ, but paid for it trying to sleep last night.  But I will be prepared this morning, going to pick up bug spray on my way to the beach today.  Even gonna bring a pair of pants just in case!!!

I haven't done to much in the way of what is on my Bucket list, but that will be revisited today!!